.@ndvh The National Domestic Violence Hotline Sucks and Here’s Why

Why the National Domestic Violence Hotline Sucks After practicing breathing techniques and positive self-talk my chest continued to tighten and the pounding headache intensified. It was time for self-care and reach out to my domestic abuse resource network. I called LoveIsRespect, a hotline recommended by the National Domestic Violence (NDV) Hotline when I needed to de-escalate a… Continue reading .@ndvh The National Domestic Violence Hotline Sucks and Here’s Why

No One Lives With Domestic Abuse for Fame

What’s On My Mind I am blogging to document domestic abuse. I helped my abuser with his resume last night. I am not a horrible person. Reality Check Not Fame When you’re living with a sociopathic narcissist you question your sanity. Am I blowing this out proportion? But he said? But he did? I don’t… Continue reading No One Lives With Domestic Abuse for Fame

The White House and Domestic Abuse

The Politics of Domestic Abuse Will The White House change how Americans see domestic abuse? Professional, educated and clean cut Rob Porter epitomizes the American dream. However, with allegations of domestic abuse, his image is under scrutiny. In addition our attitude about domestic abuse. In a recent news clip, President Trump talked about what a… Continue reading The White House and Domestic Abuse

My Abuser Thinks #RobPorter is Disgusting

No Fan of #RobPorter Last night as I watched the news, my abuser, was appalled at the news of Rob Porter’s alleged charges of domestic abuse. The irony was not lost on me. For a few moments, I doubted my own sanity. Was I imagining my abuse? No. There is a disconnect, unless abuse comes… Continue reading My Abuser Thinks #RobPorter is Disgusting

Triggers, The Feeling That Effects Your Thoughts

Tackling Triggers Yesterday, I was triggered and the sense of hopelessness enveloped me. Previously I mentioned being able to sell my social media services. Yesterday I sent in my proposal. A modest $500.00 per month to manage their accounts. As I type this now I realize I made an error in my proposal. Oh well. If… Continue reading Triggers, The Feeling That Effects Your Thoughts

Your Behavior Is Abusive

Your Behavior Is Abusive This morning I quietly walked downstairs avoiding my husband’s gaze as he masturbated in bed. Grateful he didn’t ask me to help him. While once I enjoyed a sexual relationship with him, that ended over four years ago. Now, a sex act is to avoid a false argument and get him… Continue reading Your Behavior Is Abusive

The New Normal Living With Domestic Abuse

My Normal Today Today is my new normal. I begin with a lie about where I am going to spend my day. While coping with thoughts of being homeless I continue to work on behalf of a client. Then as I participate in a conference call for an upcoming role as a facilitator thoughts of… Continue reading The New Normal Living With Domestic Abuse